When you overcome adversity, you want to help other people confront their challenges as well. I want to help you heal, and you will want to help others. That's what good humans do. We're stronger together, but to become stronger we have to pull ourselves together. 

Just like you, my personality was torn apart when I was a child. It became even more fragmented during my teens as I struggled to fit in and find my way in the world. By the time I left the comfort of the education system, I didn't know what I wanted to do for a living.

I didn't know what I wanted to do full stop. The part of my personality that is responsible for making decisions was anonymous, my capacity to connect with people was in hiding and I felt terrible. Simply horrible. Every day, I felt nauseous, lost and void of feeling. 

Then one day, something happened that would change the course of my life.

It was 2001 when I had my first epiphany – if I can call it that! I was sitting in an Amsterdam bar gazing aimlessly at the lights shimmering on the canal surface when this idea popped into my head: “I could live here!”

It wasn’t the thought that was compelling, it was the feeling that accompanied it; at that very moment, I felt a noticeable energy shift in my body in which I was completely drained of all tension. A strange feeling of weightlessness washed over me and for the first time in my life an intense feeling swelled inside of me that I can only describe as inner-peace.

I had never experienced anything quite like it before – and no, I had not been smoking marijuana. I had barely even had a drink. Yet despite this powerful and somewhat odd sensation, I slipped back into the comfort of my bubble and thought nothing more of this surreal moment for another three years.

Without going into great detail about my circumstances at the time, needless to say I was unhappy. Clinically, I would have been considered as suffering from borderline depression. I also had anxiety looming under the surface although did not realise this for another year.

At the time, I had a promising career in law and owned a house in Sheffield, England. But following a chain of events that built up over several years I reached a point where I knew I had to change my career path. The legal field was not the career path for me.

I was 29 years old and could not see myself in law for another thirty plus years. Then I had my second epiphany, and this time it was the catalyst that changed my life!